xlovelessotakux (xlovelessotakux) wrote in teacher_rants,

Frustrated and Pissed? Hell Yes.

Ok, so this is my first time posting here. I'm not new to ranting like out loud or in a notebook, and it'd be excellent to say what I wanna say off my chest knowing that no one I wouldn't want to find out find this.

Anyways! I want to start off with how I got into my situation. I'm currently being homeschooled because I got injured in a class excercise. Now, I'm stuck with two herniated disks, a scar on my spine, and a whole lot of other crap. The teacher that was supposed to be watching us and supervising decided that he could leave the class with the class leaders who are our age and don't know shit about what they're doing or what we're supposed to do.

It's about 10:30 or so in the morning and when I got injured at first I didn't feel a thing but a slight ache and when it came to my last class I couldn't even move so I was brought to the E.R. and all this happened over a few days before Spring Break.

Spring Break comes and goes and when I go back to school thinking I'm all better after also suffering from severe muscle spasms, it turns out that my teacher had no clue about what happened to me. WTF?! Almost all of the teachers were aware of what frickin' happened to me as well as some of the lunch ladies and my teacher had no clue?!  So, when he did find out he acted all nice instead of acting like the total dickhead that he is because he and the a lot of the teachers (especially the principal) were scared shitless thinking that my mom would sue the school.

A lot of my classmates and a surprising amount of teachers thought that I should've and that the school should've paid for any treatment that I received. 

To make a long ass story short, it's been a year, I somehow "reinjured" myself just carrying my backpack because now I'm prone to back problems. SO, since my mobility is now SIGNIFICANTLY limited I have to stay home and be homeschooled. This is where the real ranting starts.

Ya see, I have this teacher for my Italian class that is a total bitch. She keeps riding my ass about getting my work done and turning this thing in or that. Well, ya know what? 

I have other subjects besides, yours lady so it'd be much appreciated if you shut your fucking trap and leave me the hell alone. I give you as much as I can as fast as I can but you're not my only teacher and I still have crapload from them so be a little considerate and remember that I can't just teach myself the fucking language, after all that's what your damn class was for!

She gives me chapter after chapter of assignments along with projects and worksheets. Not only that, she gives me an impossible amount all at ONCE. When I joined her class I was really excited and thought that of all my teachers she'd be one of the most understanding since she not only has a medical problem but also because I did well in her class.

Well, it goes to show that looks can be hella deceiving. She fucking overestimates me and when I don't reach her standards then somehow it's my fault. 

My homebound teacher is quite nice and I like her and she supports and helps me and when she talks to that bitch of a teacher, my Italian teacher throws a fit and acts like a haughty old hag. She failed me in my first semester (right at the time when I began the homebound program) because I WASN'T THERE. OF COURSE I WASN'T THERE! I WAS AT HOME IN BED BECAUSE I COULD HARDLY SIT UP! AND BEFORE THAT, NOT THAT SHE WOULD CARE, BUT I WAS ALSO AT THE DAMN HOSPITAL SO EXCUSE ME FOR NOT BEING IN SCHOOL.

Go to hell, Sig.ra O. You suck, you're old fashioned, and you need to retire.

ANOTHER teacher that I'd wish would just suck it is my math teacher.

We aren't all math wizzes so don't fucking expect us to know what you're saying and skip parts! I suck a math and always have except for addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division.  I can work with algebra but for things like geometry? 

Forget it. I don't follow ,and repeating the lesson over and over without a change in your "technique" isn't helping any! You suck at teaching and your corny ass jokes aren't funny so stop trying because they won't improve my grade.

THEN I have my history teacher. Great guy and all, but c'mon, I don't have superhuman speed, I'm sorry. I can't get my work done any faster considering I can't sit up long enough to finish the damn thing. Getting assigned essay after essay isn't helping either. 

Just because I don't get my work done fast enough for your liking doesn't mean that I deserve an F, asshole. Have a little damn patience I'm going as fast as I can! Plus, isn't it quality over quantity? Or do teachers not give a crap anymore? If you're not happy with it, that's too damn bad, I have more important things to worry about.

There's also my literature teacher. I used to LOVE literature. Lately, I hate it with a passion.

My teacher expects a fucking research/thesis paper among other things and all that work from before? All those questions for that novel? What was the fucking point of that? To make sure we read the book? 


Not only those questions, but I've also had to do what seemed like "busy work"! 

It's like you have no idea what to do with us SO you give us pointless work! We don't need it, it's annoying and you just burden yourself with correcting more papers when you can't even get some of our previous papers graded and returned for at least 2 FUCKING MONTHS.

I'm basically sick of all my teachers but there's nothing I can do about it but rant. I hate my school because it's too flippin' big and I can't get around anymore. I'm tired, I'm frustrated and I'm sick of trying so hard but getting shit in return.

I know, life's rough, it's unfair, it basically just SUCKS. I get that but I'd like to get at least a bit of a damn break once in a while.

I'm still doing homework and it's almost the ass crack of dawn. I want nothing more that to start throwing punches but then there's the whole "Oh well you can't strain your back!" and all that other bullshit. I KNOW what I can't do but it doesn't stop me from WANTING to do it. Just because I said I WANT to do it doesn't mean that I actually will!


I...feel slightly better now....thank you.
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Aw, honey it sounds like you're having an amazingly rough time. I'm actually rather shocked at what you're putting up with, that should not be happening.

Most institutions have procedures and allowances in place for situations like yours - have you tried getting a letter from your doctor explaining that you can't sit up for long, and are often out of school for medical reasons (your Italian teacher should have changed your mark once she learnt your situation) and ensuring that your teachers see it? If your work and time is affected by your injury, they need to take that into account. You might also consider requesting a conference with your parents and you with any really bad offenders.

You are also at a disadvantage in lack of competitive learning & teacher assistance, and you should not be held responsible for that. You also shouldn't be getting an extreme amount more work than your classmates - that's hardly a productive teaching strategy. Depending on what year you're in, are there any special consideration schemes in place in your area? Though, that's mostly an issue for major national/state tests.

Also, have you tried just explaining to your teachers that they're expecting too much of you? Some of them will be beurocratic asshats anyway and not care, but some might listen. You never know. Tell them you have a lot of subjects, a lot of work, and that your injury makes things really hard, and explain that all you need is a bit of patience and maybe less demands thrown upon you.

Yeah, I am and the thing is, I don't want to talk to anybody in RL, like my friends or other classmates, about it because I don't like seeing their faces or having to deal with them trying to talk to me more or trying to do things for me. I sound like a petulant child, I know but I can't help it. I don't like being reminded of my situation and sometimes they make it worse.

I've gotten numerous doctor's notes but I don't think I got one for me not being able to sit up too long. My family doesn't think I need to because it's almost the end of the school year so they're telling me to just try and put up with it.

I'm not even going to school anymore because it's too big so I can't make it around unless I'm in a wheelchair and there's someone there to push me so that I don't strain my back. Even after my Italian teacher learned about my situation I'm still stuck with the F because according the school, when I was absent during the last few days of the first semester I wasn't on the homebound program yet BUT if I was then those absent days wouldn't count.

During that time I wasn't able to move so I really couldn't attend. To them, I have no doctor's notes or any documentation to prove that so those absences are counted against me. Also, during that time was when they were trying to get me on the homebound program and I had to wait but my absencse weren't excused.

My mom is trying to schedule an appointment with my teachers at the moment but apparently, everyone is too busy.

Yes, I am at a great disadvantage because sure, I have a homebound teacher but she doesn't know how to teach all of the subjects AND I only have her for one hour everyday in the morning before school because she is also a regular teacher at my school. I'm practically teaching myself and it's frustrating and I just don't know what to do anymore!

My teachers give me loads of homework so that they don't have to send homework every week but getting so much at once is difficult because when I get the work from all of my teachers it just piles on and on.

I'm currently a sophmore in high shool I don't know about any special consideration themes.

I'm scared to try to explain it to my teachers because I'm the type of student that tries to please and completes everything I'm given. I'm afraid of how they'll react. I've been communicating with them through e-mail and have tried to explain it to them but since I don't really get replies unless I have questions I don't know if they care or anything since of course, it's not the same thing as talking to them in person and being able to see their reactions myself.

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Another thing is that most of my classes are honors classes and before this all started it was always "Oh well, she's an honor student so she should be able to handle it!" I got that a lot from m Italian teacher and some my other teachers...

Actually, when the head of the homebound program found out that my Italian teacher failed me she got upset and demanded that my teacher either changed my grade because she also said that it wasn't my fault for getting injured and not being in school OR that I drop the class. It's nice to know that someone's on my side, you know?

After this year, I'm going to be transferring to another school in the suburbs since I'm in the city right now. The school in the suburbs is MUCH smaller because my current school is like a mini university and the campus is HUGE inside and out.

However, the school in the suburbs, however, doesn't want me attending the school JUST to go to school there and I have to be a resident, which isn't really a problem because I'll live with my aunt and her family. The thing is all legal guardianship has to go to my aunt. I don't know WHY but it has to and it's basically like she's adopting me.

My mom has already talked to our lawyer about giving my aunt the guardianship but it's difficult because we also have to go to court in front of a judge and everything, for it.

The school is really thorough and will send a social worker or something to make sure that I'm actually residing at my aunt's house and everything! If not then I guess they won't allow me to go to school there.

I mean, the main reason that I want to transfer to that school is because it's closer to my doctor and the hospital that I go to which includes the physical therapy facility. It's a ridiculous reason but yeah, that's why. I only have two years left! I'm just exhausted from all that's happened.

I'm really sorry for practically telling you my life story but I want to thank you for replying. It's nice to know that someone cares, so thank you.
Oops! Sorry for all of the typos in the comments and the post! I've been pulling all nighters so I'm really tired and didn't notice eh that's what I get for being deprived of sleep, oy...
I know the feeling, don't worry. My sentences are always going mad after I hit the "post" button. Dern language.
You're welcome, love. And no need to apoligise, you vent all you like, I don't mind at all. I only wish I knew more about the school system in your part of the world so I could offer some advice or comfort some how. If you were Australian I'd be full of contacts and links and antecdotes! as it is, all I can offer is my sympathy.

I really do hope things get better for you, sweetie. It's unfortunate, and quite sad, that your family has to go through that sort of legal procedure to get you to a better school situation, but just think how much easier it'll all be once it's done.

(I'm sure your family has considered your situation quite thouroughly, and like I said, I don't know what options you've availible to you where you are, so this
suggestion might be obsolete, but have you investigated distance education? As in, enrolling in an institution designed for provideing education to stundents who don't have access to traditional schooling. The courses are designed to be done from home, and there are always teachers availible to help over phone, email, or video conferencing. There must be some way you can get more access to teacher assisted learning when you need it, without having to move out of home.
And when the time comes to sit your SAT or apply for college/uni, look into special consideration - it may exist, and it may help.)

The best advice I can give you really (as an overachiever who has been over her head herself), that translates over all school systems, is this: Don't ever be afraid or ashamed to admit you're having trouble. If you're frustrated, talk. If you're struggling, ask for help. Even honours students need a bit of a break, there's only so much time in the day and you've got a lot on your plate. Tell your teachers if you're having trouble coping - your situation has effected your education, they need to take that into account and they can't if they don't know. Don't let your pride make things any harder than they need to be. And when you need a rest, there are worse things in the world than putting work on the backburner for an evening. School's hard and horrible, but don't let it get to you.

And remember; you're doing amazingly well. Be sure to let yourself be proud of that. For any student, getting through school is a great achievment. Make sure you stop and consider that from time to time. Appreciate the work you're doing and the progress you're making, because it's a big job, and you should be really really proud.

You do have people on your side, love - your Mum, the people at the home bound program, that girl on the internet who writes ridiculously big paragraphs - and you're doing well, and things will get better. Besides, you're so close to being finished now, and then school, really, once you're out of it, it's nothing. It seems bad now, but it works itself out in the end, and then you're free! I know how exhausting it can be, and can imagine how much worse it might seem to you, but it's all just a matter of time. Keep your head above the water, do your best, and wait it out. Everything will be okay.

Yeah, thanks so much though! You made me feel tons better. It just makes me feel like I'm burdening you with my problems, but I can't thank you enough for listening.

School is almost over and it's gotten more hectic because I'm being pushed for more work before I have to leave and finals are coming up, but I have no idea how that's going to work....

I can only hope that things get easier even if it's just a little because I feel like I'm at my limit already.

For the education distance thing, I don't think they offer that here. However, even if they do they (school board) didn't mention it and I don't think they will/want to because for them it'd be an extra expense, which is actually why, I think, they didn't want to put me on the homebound program in the first place.

Thanks for the advice. You're right, but it's just so hard for me to ask for help or "admit defeat." I told my teachers but I don't think they are listening...or paying attention. I'm not surprised since they have other students to deal with. My homebound teacher keeps telling me that "..it's okay" and "..what counts is that you put effort into it!" and I want to accept that and just keep moving on but ugh...I just don't know anymore.

I'm already so tired. I keep telling myself that it's only a couple more days but I swear it seems like forever. I know that there are worst things other than putting off homework but I feel like I owe it to my teachers to finish it. I feel so guilty for not being in school and being such a bother for them. Does that make sense? I mean, I'm not there which makes it harder for them to deal with me.

I try to tell myself that I'm doing well, but I can never be satisfied with my work. It always has to be a little more something, you know?

Haha! Yeah I know I got some people on my side but when I have to deal with everything it feels like I'm doing it alone. I can only hope that things will get better and work out because if I say they will then obviously it won't turn out that way either because of fate or whatever and/or life is just like that.

I'm trying my hardest to hold out and hang in there. Thanks again for the support! It really does make me feel like everything just might be ok.